Silent Sunday

Silent Sunday

Feeling twice dumped

I know, not very up-beat posts lately but in between the posts, life is very fine.

But back to the matter at hand.

Having been dumped after a some-what short relationship with a man, I also feel like one of my dearest friends has done the same.

She started seeing a man in late January and this guy has now been introduced to her children, while I'm really happy for her, I barely get the chance to see her.

Between other newer friends and this man, I seriously feel like she has no time for me.

The thing is, I'm not even asking for a lot of time.  But where we would grab a coffee after school drop off or afternoon tea while the children played together, now nothing.

It's always, "sorry, but I'm meeting _____ (new friend) for coffee" or "sorry, but ______ (new man) is popping over".

I'm coming to the point where I'm wondering how much more effort should I be putting into this friendship.  I feel like the friendship that we had, which has been a strong friendship for the last 8 years is disappearing before my very eyes and I don't know what to do about it.
I wonder if I've done something to offend her?  Or if I've done something wrong?  

I've tried talking with her and she has said that she too feels like there is a gap here, but I don't see any signs of her changing how things are with us.

I do wonder if I'm blowing this out of proportion and whether I should simply be happy that she has found someone.  Am I jealous?  Yes, of course.  I would love to meet someone that I felt strongly enough about to introduce them to my child.  But this isn't it.

She talks about doing stuff but there is never any follow through.  I've suggested new destinations to visit with the children too, but no date is ever set.  Either that or I'm too late.  It's this feeling of being brushed aside.

So what do I do?

Do I do anything?

If so, what?

Or am I just making a mountain out of mole-hill?
I'm missing my friend.

3/4s left to go

I feel as if I simply haven't had enough time in the last 4 months to write anything.

So just in case I run out of said time, I will keep this short.

Lets just call it a synopsis of life or rather the abridged version.

Everyone knows that life as a parent can be hectic but life as a single parent is sometimes a logistical nightmare.  Throw into the mix the hopeful desire to possibly meet a decent member of the opposite sex and well now I'm asking for the impossible. 

But somehow, I did manage to meet a very nice man, who ticked most of the boxes.

Breathing √

Single √

Solvant (relatively) √

Nice looking √

A gentleman √

Already has children √

Thinks I might be the 'one' X

And so that relationship came to an end after 2 months.

And then today, my aunt and uncle were talking about a friend and his partner.  They referred to the partner as the 'love of his life'.

That's what I want.

I want to be the 'love' of someone's life.

So then why is it so difficult to meet that person?

It seems that the people who tell me to stop looking and then it will happen, are all happily ensconced in wonderful long term relationships.

Hmmm.....what's wrong with that picture, eh?

Ok....so you got the potted history of my non-existant love-life since the New Year.

Next time I promise to write something more exciting and more insightful.

Depth and breadth will be explored!

Silent Sunday